praying my Jimmy is in heaven and that he will be waiting for me when it is my time to leave this earth and we will spend eternity together. i am praying that he sees what his stepdaughter has done to me. i pray that he loves me as much as i love him. please God, take this woman out of my life and please let whatever she thinks she is getting, she doesn't. Lord I pray he saw at the end of his life that she was not good and she is actually cruel and selfish. the things she said about him i cannot even repeat. anything to hurt me. she would not let me come to be with him in his hours of need. i tried and i hope he knows that. i love and miss him so much and i don't know what i am going to do without him. he was my friend, my partner, my love, my support and he made me happy in so many ways. we had reached a good spot in our relationship. he wanted me to be with him more and more. he finally let down his guard after 16 yrs because he knew i only had good intentions for him. nothing bad. my family loved him and he actually returned the feeling. we were so happy these past two years. we survived 2 hurricanes in florid and i think that is what made him realize what we meant to each other. he was a kind, caring, good man who always had a surprise for me. i miss his bear hugs and holding his hand when we walked and kissing him goodnight. how could he have had cancer without knowing? and then die so suddenly? please Lord keep hiim near me. please let me feel him around me. let me remember the smiles and laughs and happiness. please God, i don't know what i will do without him. he was my life and love. thank you for hearing my prayer. amen.